When “Just Friends” Feels Like Something More

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Friendship | | Expert Author , Grief Counselor
Updated On: September 19, 2024
When “Just Friends” Feels Like Something More
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(As told to Pooja Priyamvada)

(Names changed to protect identities)

This is the story of an unexpected bond, a connection that transcends the conventional lines of friendship. He’s married, I’m single, and yet we’ve found a unique space where our souls intertwine in a way that feels both exhilarating and forbidden. It’s a space where laughter mingles with unspoken desires, where shared moments carry the weight of unspoken truths.

“The line between friendship and love can be blurry.”

How I Met My Best Friend

It was the early ‘90s in Nainital. I’d just stepped into teenage and submerged deeper into my recluse life, which was only about books. I had very few friends from school, the overweight geek who didn’t love the outdoors and whose routine was six days at school and if an evening/weekend was free, stroll up to the library on The Mall alone and look for more books to read.

I lived with my parents, cousins and extended family in an old heritage building that also housed the office of a students’ organisation and several other offices and homes. It is there that I had first met Tarun.

love stories start as friendships
Sometimes the best love stories start as friendships

I was in school then, he was in college and a regular visitor and active member of the organisation. That’s where our friendship bloomed.

Tarun, being his usual friendly self, would sometimes barge into the game of “Pitthu” or cards. We were both keen readers and that’s how we got talking more and more. He would always bring something new to read and share, “Here Priya! Read this, you must read Kerouac and Bukowski.”

I soon learned to make chai/coffee the way he liked it best. I had begun to love this local Che Guevara of mine and would often shout from my attic window to call him over, “Hey Tarun! Come when you are free, let’s have chai!”

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We vetted each other’s friends

A few years later, all through my college in the pre-mobile phone era, pestered by my friends I would ask him, “Tarun, can I give your phone number to Ruchi, she wants to speak to you?” Or “Hey, you know Isha my friend has invited you to her birthday party with me, will you come?”

Tarun would never respond positively; however, he was critical of all the boys I met or dated. He wouldn’t even mince his words speaking about my then boyfriend, “Priya, I don’t like this Verma guy you are with, please don’t go anywhere alone with him.”

My friends would often tease me, “This is confusing. Does he love you like a boy loves a girl or like an elder sibling would?”

Tarun’s popularity as a political figure in the state was growing, so he travelled a lot more for political work and we met less often then, but he remained in my heart my special friend. Subsequently we both entered respective serious romantic relationships and even both our families were surprised, because we were so close that even they had even begun to think that there was more than just friendship between us.

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What is the biggest fear holding you back from pursuing a romantic relationship with this friend?

Then we got married, to other people

By the time I reached university, Tarun had an arranged marriage with Reema, the way his widowed mom wanted for her only son. I was happy for both of them and knew that there wasn’t anything romantic about my love for him.

Ours became a long-distance friendship now; we met less and less while he juggled his time between his growing political career and new fatherhood. His wife was cordial, but I could sense her discomfort whenever I went over or even met them briefly in public.

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A few years later I was married too and a mom. My husband also told me that he didn’t like my deep concern for Tarun, so I stayed away from him even more.

We maintained a cordial distance as both our respective spouses wished, but Tarun was always there for me without fail, whether it was some logistic help in my hometown or some health emergency of my old parents. To me he was always my good old ‘T’.

He told me years later, “You know, Priya, whenever I struggled to understand Reema, I would think of how I would have reacted to the specific grouse if it was from you and not her and that made me understand her better, her need to have her space and aspirations better.”

On More Than Friends

He was there for me, even from a distance

Unfortunately, when my marriage turned unbearably violent and I had to go through my divorce, he was in Europe for a fellowship and there were huge gaps in communication. But when he came back, unlike the usual advice from my women friends, he said, “So it’s over now. Get the hang of your financials. Let’s set you firmly on a career path, the rest will follow.”

We now live in different cities. Between his active political career and my single parenthood, we hardly speak or meet, yet he is the only one to whom I am accountable for my physical and mental health issues.

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It is such a soul comfort to have a bond forged over decades that means we will be home to each other and while the world around us may still conjecture about a married man and a single woman’s friendship, we know we are “just friends” in the most special and empowering way.

How Çan We Maintain A Healthy Friendship Despite These Feelings?

  • Set Clear Boundaries: Define what is and isn’t acceptable in your interactions. This might include limiting physical contact, avoiding intimate conversations, or refraining from spending time alone together in certain settings.
  • Open and Honest Communication: Talk openly and honestly about your feelings with your friend. Acknowledge the complexity of the situation and express your desire to maintain the friendship.
  • Acknowledge Your Feelings: Don’t suppress your feelings, but also don’t let them consume you. Find healthy ways to process them, such as journaling, talking to a therapist, or confiding in a trusted friend.
  • Create Distance if Needed: If the feelings become too overwhelming or if maintaining the friendship becomes detrimental to your well-being, it’s okay to take a step back or create some distance.
  • Respect Their Marriage: Always be mindful of their commitment to their spouse. Avoid any actions or conversations that could jeopardize their relationship.

FAQs

1. How do I know if my “just friends” relationship is crossing a line?

If you find yourself constantly thinking about them, prioritizing their needs over your own, or engaging in behaviors that compromise their marriage, it might be a sign that the boundaries are blurring.

2. How can I protect myself emotionally in this situation?

Setting clear boundaries, prioritizing self-care, and maintaining open communication with your friend are crucial. It’s also important to have a support system outside of this friendship.

3. What if their spouse finds out about our connection?

Transparency and open communication are crucial in this scenario. It’s important to respect their spouse’s feelings and be prepared for potential consequences.

Final Thoughts

While it’s natural to yearn for a deeper connection, it’s crucial to remember that prioritizing the well-being of all involved is paramount. Open communication, self-awareness, and a willingness to navigate the gray areas with compassion and understanding are key.

Ultimately, the decision of how to proceed rests with you and your friend. It’s about finding a balance that honors your feelings while respecting the existing commitments and prioritizing the well-being of everyone involved. Whether the friendship evolves, transforms, or fades, the lessons learned from navigating this complex terrain will undoubtedly shape your understanding of love, friendship, and the boundaries we set for ourselves. Remember, it’s okay to feel deeply, to question, and to seek support along the way with our experts.

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  1. Keep it respectable for that is how it will last. Yes, it’s a soul friendship.

    Sorry for all that you went through. At least you have a great friend.

    At times it’s enough to be wanted in the worldly sense than be loved the candlelight dinner way.

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